[ That's also a surprise, but maybe a little less so in the immediate shadow of the first. ]

...yeah. Yeah, I get that. Fuck, who knows where my head was at, y'know? Don't even know now and it's been a few fuckin' weeks. Fuckin'— ugh. Every time you think you're getting used to shit, y'know.

[ She's not sure if him checking on her too would've helped or ended badly, volatile as her emotional state was. Not following through might've been a good instinct. But right now she's— this is fine, she thinks. Saying that felt weird, opening up to people at all still feels weird. But she's learning.

She lets herself slip into a loose stance. ]