Just -- maybe try to make that second part the first thing. [ a sigh, rubbing a hand through his hair as he leans back against the wall again. ] Sometimes you do the right thing, or -- some right things, anyway. For the wrong reasons.
[ though to be fair to wash, those wrong reasons were the main thing that kept him going for a long time. bone-deep anger, a bitterness in him that would never die out, spiteful and hateful and boiling into nothing less than the unfettered pursuit of any kind of vengeance, any kind of justice. he did it for vengeance, for his friends -- not often for himself. and even if he's reached a better place, now, after all these years, it's still something he struggles with. ]
Not that wanting to spare your friends the trouble is a bad reason, exactly. But other people -- can change. Can let you down. Won't always be what you need them to be. Or maybe they'll won't be there, anymore, through no fault of their own.
[ north. carolina. anyone else. ]
Changing for your own sake has got to be a good enough reason, in itself.
[ he blames himself for so much he knows isn't really his fault. finds it difficult to motivate himself for his own sake, finds it dedicate himself to others, instead. but he knows its not -- the best way to handle it. not really. ]
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Just -- maybe try to make that second part the first thing. [ a sigh, rubbing a hand through his hair as he leans back against the wall again. ] Sometimes you do the right thing, or -- some right things, anyway. For the wrong reasons.
[ though to be fair to wash, those wrong reasons were the main thing that kept him going for a long time. bone-deep anger, a bitterness in him that would never die out, spiteful and hateful and boiling into nothing less than the unfettered pursuit of any kind of vengeance, any kind of justice. he did it for vengeance, for his friends -- not often for himself. and even if he's reached a better place, now, after all these years, it's still something he struggles with. ]
Not that wanting to spare your friends the trouble is a bad reason, exactly. But other people -- can change. Can let you down. Won't always be what you need them to be. Or maybe they'll won't be there, anymore, through no fault of their own.
[ north. carolina. anyone else. ]
Changing for your own sake has got to be a good enough reason, in itself.
[ he blames himself for so much he knows isn't really his fault. finds it difficult to motivate himself for his own sake, finds it dedicate himself to others, instead. but he knows its not -- the best way to handle it. not really. ]