[ Wash can relate to that. Or at least, some of it -- whole life calculating what to do, thinking too much, planning ahead. He can't turn it off. But it's something he really, really doesn't want to turn off, too aware of what might happen if he doesn't hold on as tight as he can. What helps him relax isn't taking that control away, but being able to exert it -- and being able to let loose some impulses and darker parts of himself that he has to keep carefully controlled otherwise.
He nods. Watching him closely, as always, watching the way his fingers run through his hair. ]
I can understand that.
[ He does take consent and control very, very seriously -- he has to. But sometimes, a lot of the time, what people want -- what he wants -- is for the lines to blur. Fade away until they aren't even there anymore. The amount of trust that's required to genuinely do that safely is difficult, how well you have to know someone, how well they have to know you. And what they have is a little bit of a shortcut to that point. ]
It's still a leap of faith. [ Mostly for Dick, but it's mutual. They really don't know that much about each other. He tips his head to the side slightly, his voice sliding just ever so slightly lower. ] But I can do that for you.
[ Whether it's starting something new or continuing something unfinished is a matter of interpretation and semantics. ]
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He nods. Watching him closely, as always, watching the way his fingers run through his hair. ]
I can understand that.
[ He does take consent and control very, very seriously -- he has to. But sometimes, a lot of the time, what people want -- what he wants -- is for the lines to blur. Fade away until they aren't even there anymore. The amount of trust that's required to genuinely do that safely is difficult, how well you have to know someone, how well they have to know you. And what they have is a little bit of a shortcut to that point. ]
It's still a leap of faith. [ Mostly for Dick, but it's mutual. They really don't know that much about each other. He tips his head to the side slightly, his voice sliding just ever so slightly lower. ] But I can do that for you.
[ Whether it's starting something new or continuing something unfinished is a matter of interpretation and semantics. ]