[ d'artagnan being willing to share with him quickly and immediately and just over text is -- an amount of trust he appreciates. it might just be pragmatic, given that if he wants wash to help him with it then he would've always needed to know at some point, but wash still sees it as a level of trust.
wash starts to type a thank you for telling me that but then -- opts not to. perhaps not the way to go, with d'artagnan. ]
Experimenting with power dynamics, pushing at those boundaries, that's all well and good and healthy and something I'd encourage anyone to try. But it's very different when anyone involved is coerced. I'm comfortable with that kind of thing and had been for years before arriving here, but I still find myself hesitating and holding back, sometimes, with my contract partners. Just because of the nature of where we are. Let alone back in that facility.
[ wash did not have a great time there, either. ]
As far as an understanding of your apprehension goes, it sounds like you've already got a good start. Self-awareness is difficult for many. I hope you've talked to your girlfriend about it.
My reasons for why I enjoy it won't be yours, but I'm happy to share them and work with you. We'll see if you can find some reasons of your own, while learning the ropes.
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wash starts to type a thank you for telling me that but then -- opts not to. perhaps not the way to go, with d'artagnan. ]
Experimenting with power dynamics, pushing at those boundaries, that's all well and good and healthy and something I'd encourage anyone to try. But it's very different when anyone involved is coerced. I'm comfortable with that kind of thing and had been for years before arriving here, but I still find myself hesitating and holding back, sometimes, with my contract partners. Just because of the nature of where we are. Let alone back in that facility.
[ wash did not have a great time there, either. ]
As far as an understanding of your apprehension goes, it sounds like you've already got a good start. Self-awareness is difficult for many. I hope you've talked to your girlfriend about it.
My reasons for why I enjoy it won't be yours, but I'm happy to share them and work with you. We'll see if you can find some reasons of your own, while learning the ropes.