[ having reality-shattering trauma and a perfect memory is, as it turns out, a no-fun combination. he just nods, not quite meeting her eye, he doesn't like talking about it for obvious reasons. but freelancer is freelancer, and its not like they all didn't already know what happened. at least in the broad strokes. ]
I'm used to it. [ just so dryly, but truthful: when the memory is that strong, so deeply-ingrained, its just an inevitable spiral to the same place whenever he's unable to actually control his thoughts. most nights, if not every night. he sure does avoid sleeping until he has to. ] The new part was having visitors.
Knowing him, he’ll come try talk to you about it. Brace yourself for weirdly condescending sympathy. He’ll mean well, but he’s… well, he’s him.
[ Not that he’s as goddamned patronising with other people as he is her, but it’s still a legitimate warning. North’s… North. She loves him, but he’s a fucking pain sometimes. ]
We had a couple people turn up in like, our shared memories? Lina, for one. It was… well it was sure a fucking night, huh?
[ She’s absolutely choosing not to think too hard about the fact North and her apparently had a shared damn dreamscape for parts of that night. Too close to weird twin telepathy bullshit she’s just refusing to acknowledge. ]
[ urg. he stiffens noticeably at the thought. it makes sense that north would want to come talk to him about it, but. wash really, really doesn't want to talk about it. not to north, not to york, mostly because they are far too nice and its something that he just really doesn't want to be comforted about, and the idea that anyone at all had been able to see those memories from him still pisses him off if he lingers on the thought too much. ]
Great. [ ughh. ] Thanks for the heads up.
[ its fine, he'll handle it. he looks back at her finally when the subject shifts. shared memories? ]
I didn't see much of anyone else's, thankfully. [ York. Sharkface. But . . . ] None of yours. None of -- both of yours?
Can’t let anyone go into that one blind. Shout if you need rescuing from him, too. Or you can always distract him by saying something about me. Either works.
[ That’s mostly a joke. Mostly. It’s definitely probably easy to distract him with the right comment about her, but. ]
Both of ours. Hazard of spending thirty fuckin’ years of our lives barely apart, basically all of our memories overlap. Guess whatever caused the dreams decided to— combine shit for simplicity or some shit, I don’t know.
[ She rolls her eyes. Luckily it didn’t make her relive his death with him, that’d have bothered her in a whole different way. ]
[ wash won't throw her under the bus to get out of a conversation with north that he doesn't want, but he miiight call on her if he really needs it. but he'll handle it. he likes north, of course he does, he just really doesn't want to talk about that with anyone if he can help it.
he does raise an eyebrow when she describes the shared dreams -- he won't ask about it, because it seems like a shitty thing to ask, but he's going to assume that if they did have a shared dream about north's death that she wouldn't be able to talk about it quite so calmly. ]
I guess I'm glad my fucked up dreamscape was just my fucked up dreamscape.
[ She honestly wonders if the only thing that saved her from reliving it with him is that York apparently didn’t interact with the dream he saw at all, just watched. Too stunned to even say anything. It was Carolina and Temple commenting on what they were watching that drew her and North back into reality. ]
Yeah, you should be. I mean, coulda been worse, but— super fucking weird, do not recommend.
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I'm used to it. [ just so dryly, but truthful: when the memory is that strong, so deeply-ingrained, its just an inevitable spiral to the same place whenever he's unable to actually control his thoughts. most nights, if not every night. he sure does avoid sleeping until he has to. ] The new part was having visitors.
North got a look, too.
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Knowing him, he’ll come try talk to you about it. Brace yourself for weirdly condescending sympathy. He’ll mean well, but he’s… well, he’s him.
[ Not that he’s as goddamned patronising with other people as he is her, but it’s still a legitimate warning. North’s… North. She loves him, but he’s a fucking pain sometimes. ]
We had a couple people turn up in like, our shared memories? Lina, for one. It was… well it was sure a fucking night, huh?
[ She’s absolutely choosing not to think too hard about the fact North and her apparently had a shared damn dreamscape for parts of that night. Too close to weird twin telepathy bullshit she’s just refusing to acknowledge. ]
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Great. [ ughh. ] Thanks for the heads up.
[ its fine, he'll handle it. he looks back at her finally when the subject shifts. shared memories? ]
I didn't see much of anyone else's, thankfully. [ York. Sharkface. But . . . ] None of yours. None of -- both of yours?
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Can’t let anyone go into that one blind. Shout if you need rescuing from him, too. Or you can always distract him by saying something about me. Either works.
[ That’s mostly a joke. Mostly. It’s definitely probably easy to distract him with the right comment about her, but. ]
Both of ours. Hazard of spending thirty fuckin’ years of our lives barely apart, basically all of our memories overlap. Guess whatever caused the dreams decided to— combine shit for simplicity or some shit, I don’t know.
[ She rolls her eyes. Luckily it didn’t make her relive his death with him, that’d have bothered her in a whole different way. ]
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he does raise an eyebrow when she describes the shared dreams -- he won't ask about it, because it seems like a shitty thing to ask, but he's going to assume that if they did have a shared dream about north's death that she wouldn't be able to talk about it quite so calmly. ]
I guess I'm glad my fucked up dreamscape was just my fucked up dreamscape.
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[ She honestly wonders if the only thing that saved her from reliving it with him is that York apparently didn’t interact with the dream he saw at all, just watched. Too stunned to even say anything. It was Carolina and Temple commenting on what they were watching that drew her and North back into reality. ]
Yeah, you should be. I mean, coulda been worse, but— super fucking weird, do not recommend.