I remember everything since the incident. Before then, I have a more normal person's memory. Still a pretty good one, but more normal.
[ it's been a while since wash has been able to, or has wanted to, talk candidly about the incident, but nat does know about it. it has had the side effect of making everything of his life since before then feel almost -- less real, when he can't remember it with the same perfect clarity. home. family. he debates bringing it up, but. opts not to. ]
Post-incident, sometimes something happens where I might try to remember something, but -- get the wrong thing. Like an error in a search, almost.
[ if/when it happens, it's usually bad! ]
Sounds like he's real important to you. Sorry that he's not here, anymore.
( ahh — the incident. that all checks out, given what he's told her. still since this is decidedly after, it doesn't mean he'll forget her picture. and somehow she doesn't even want to wish that his memories would get scrambled. not over this. it's just not important enough.
she knows what it likes to have memories mixed up and she wouldn't wish that on anyone. )
i'm not sorry we were trying to get his family back, back home if i'm right, he gets to go back to them
[ wash wouldn't like his memories mixed up either, a thing he's more particular about than most -- but he does hate having things ripped from him, secrets and information he wouldn't have normally given up freely. it seems normal in the city to most, but wash can't help but be hyper-conscious of it, but to offer pieces and little vulnerabilities of himself in turn to anyone who's had theirs given to him unwillingly.
and, ah. he hears that, even through the text. factual enough responses, but shades of they'd be better off without me. ]
( it's complicated. natasha is an honorary member of clint's family; he and laura were both so gracious, always made sure that she knew she had a home with them. even after the kids were born, she was auntie nat. laura had never flinched in the face of her past, even her past that involved clint. but... )
not selfless, but not selfish either i do miss him
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[ and he would absolutely lie to most people to make them feel better, so. point of respect! ]
They're from back home?
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( ignorance is bliss, etc etc )
i didn't even know i had these or that pictures form home were possible
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[ that's true! and it's a transparent offer of something else for her to ask him about, if she doesn't want him asking more about these. ]
I don't keep anything on my device. They find ways, anyway. Guess they can pull from even further than we thought.
They look nice, though.
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what determines whether or not you remember it?
( ordinarily she’d leap at the change of subject and just that but — maybe she wants to talk about it. at least, part of it. )
the man in the second picture
he was here for a long time
my partner and best friend, clint barton
( partner, best friend, and … #itscomplicated )
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[ it's been a while since wash has been able to, or has wanted to, talk candidly about the incident, but nat does know about it. it has had the side effect of making everything of his life since before then feel almost -- less real, when he can't remember it with the same perfect clarity. home. family. he debates bringing it up, but. opts not to. ]
Post-incident, sometimes something happens where I might try to remember something, but -- get the wrong thing. Like an error in a search, almost.
[ if/when it happens, it's usually bad! ]
Sounds like he's real important to you. Sorry that he's not here, anymore.
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she knows what it likes to have memories mixed up and she wouldn't wish that on anyone. )
i'm not sorry
we were trying to get his family back, back home
if i'm right, he gets to go back to them
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and, ah. he hears that, even through the text. factual enough responses, but shades of they'd be better off without me. ]
Selfless of you.
But still. I'm sure you miss him.
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not selfless, but not selfish either
i do miss him
but it's better this way